Well....I ain't got it yet....so I ain't gonna die!

I titled today with a merry heart. Yesterday's sermon, "What are you expecting?" confirmed so many things for me.

First of all, so far at my lowest, I'm very optimistic and have faith that everything is going to be okay. So much so, that often times someone will say, "you don't need anything, you already have it all together"....and I think, "now what did I do to communicate that?" I need everyone's prayers, concern and care.....this process stinks, quite frankly but I'm focused on the big picture! If I focused on the day to day symptons and process, I wouldn't feel so optimistic! It is your prayers holding me up. It is your care and concern through words and cards that keep my faith tank fueled.

In the message today, Bro. Johns said, "God will not let you die until he gives what he promised you.....he does not promise something and take it away"......well, there you have it. I have been living on God's promise when he directly spoke to me and told me that he was going to protect me. Well....if you are protected, typically all measures are meant to take you through a situation as unscathed as possible. While trying to protect, you may re-route the direction the person's path to give them more protection.

Ever saw a child lost in the store away from their parents and the panic on their face? Or maybe an amusement park? In a child's eye, the surroundings seem very large and quite frightening when they thought they had the protection of their parent, who was close by when they were playing with some very interesting toy, to look up and see their "protection" gone? Most times, the parent make have walked right around the corner and is very close and possibly in the sight of the child....but the child looks up and doesn't see things exactly as he/she remembered when they moved away to pick up that toy or to look at something interesting and the first reaction is to be scared....but a loving parent never really loses sight of the child because they are protecting them....they might have moved to a slightly different location and the child wasn't prepared for their movement just yet. As the child at first feels panic, the parent sees that the child is scared says to the child, "here I am, I didn't go anywhere"....as the child runs under the protection of the parent and is comforted.

One of the scriptures from the sermon yesterday.
Psalm 62:5 NKJV
My soul, wait silently for God alone,
For my expectation is from HIM

The quote (not sure this is verbatim but the jist of what I'm saying is the same).
He who does not expect is never disappointed.

So many times I have asked the kids, "what do you want?" As a parent we want to meet/make our child's expectations a reality. So, why when I ask the Lord God Almighty for anything I would think God would do any less? Why would I expect any less?

What are we expecting? What do we expect with our lives? Do we even have expectations? As I already stated, this sermon was a confirmation for so many things for me.

I even asked Bro. Johns after church if he preached this message for me. I loved his answer, "I didn't even know you would be here but I don't preach a sermon for someone, I pray about what I should preach and HE is the one who gives me the message.....so, the Lord must have known what you needed and HE is the one who gave you the message". Now folks, do you get any better than that? The Lord gave the message?

So, if God gave me a promise and HIS promise hasn't been totally fulfilled, I guess that means my days of walking this beautiful, green earth still has many more days. Not that I thought it would be any other way but God confirmed it....what better way of having the feeling in your spirit but God confirming it? Doesn't get any better than that.....!!!!!! :-)

As you can tell, I was able to go to church yesterday. I felt so normal....I know I'm normal but I'm living a "new" normal because you live day to day never knowing what your body is going to do....and it was so refreshing to see everyone, hear all the wonderful music and then have God's word speak right to my heart. Wow, what a great day! Thank you Jesus!

Love to all for your prayers, kind words and encouragement. My words of gratitude would never be enough for you to really know how much it means!