Thursday, September 4, 2008

Don't take it personal

For some odd reason, this thing that has tried to attach itself to me....tends to come with its own emotions.

Those that know me, know that I'm pretty constant when it comes to doing what needs to be done and not trying to worry about everything little thing, etc....however, this "thing" makes me nervous and think more than I should so.......if I should seem aloof, distant....don't take it comes with the territory. It makes you feel as if others are staring at you....wondering what you are thinking, trying to see your expressions, and it feels overwhelming at times. I asked my grandma who is going through the same thing and she said the can't help it. You feel like you are living someone else's life, everyone is looking at you and you've become the goldfish in the bowl. It ends up making us nervous around people so often times it seems as if we are avoiding people. As I keep saying, it comes with the territory so please don't take it personal.

People interaction is what I need most so I certainly don't mean to push anyone away.

My mom has kept me on a strict regimen of what meds I should take around the clock and my days have become quite tolerable. Today, my aunt is going to stop by and visit. Mom said we would wrap some of the Christmas presents I've already bought. The more I get done when I'm feeling well, the better I will feel. I may even start my Christmas cards. I know it is how many months away but we all know how quickly it comes around. It may be slower for me this year but nonetheless, Christmas is always here before you know it.

I'm going to try to work around the house a little today to see how my body handles it. Just bending over from my surgery has been excruiating at times....especially when my incision came back open so I have to be careful. Nonetheless, I've got to try to see what I can do so I won't go stir crazy later.

Today is going to be a more physical day......Thank you Lord for the energy.

P.S. What do you think about Palin as VP?


#1Fan said...

Hi Leah. Glad to read a post from you, and glad to see you are trying to stir around a little. I thought I was ahead of the game by making my Christmas list, but you got me beat! Good for you!! I'll be in touch later!

Diana DeBolt said...

Hey Leah,

Yes christmas will be here before we know it. I haven't even made a list yet. Glad to hear from you. You are always in our thoughts and prayers.

Love, Diana

Mandy L. said...

Hi Leah,

Praise the Lord, your feeling better today. The Lord is doing great things. I know you have heard about my nephew that is nineteen and has Hodgkin lymphoma & leukemia cancer. He has been in treatment now for about 2 months. Every other week he goes to Emory. It hasn't been easy as you know, but it is paying off. He had another round of chemo today. The doctors came in and told him the test showed that his tumor was smaller. Through prayer, chemo is working and he is getting better. We're all believing God will do the same for you. I am praying for you and your family daily.

-Sis. Sherry

Anonymous said...


You know buying Christmas starting in January is right up my alley. Good for you on getting the headstart! I love to buy it, but I hate to wrap it.

After last night, I am finally excited about the election. I would vote for Pallin by herself. She was a breath of fresh air in this otherwise dismal election.

Glad you are having more good days than bad. Remember on the bad days that we are all lifting you up in prayer, and you are going to make it.

Stay strong!


Donna said...

I am enjoying the posts, Leah. I am so thankful that you are feeling some better today. Yes, God is good. I am thankful for His touch on you! Donna New

Anonymous said...

Leah, I am glad to hear you are feeling better today. Maybe I'll do my Christmas Cards early. Always good to get started early. I think Pallin did a wonderful job last night. She could decide for a lot of people which way to vote. As always I am still praying for you. Cecil asks about you everyday and says to tell you it was nice to meet you and that you are in his prayers everyday. Take Care and I hope to visit you again real soon. Maybe Joey can come this time. Love you bunches Vickie

Anonymous said...

Hey there girl. Still love reading your post....helps me to know what to pray for. YES Christmas will be here WAY before you know it. I start all through the year or I cant keep up myself. If you need help wrapping...or need paper or anything just give me a call :O) Cassie

Anonymous said...

Oh and about the election...I do like Palin...but scared to death of both candidates...sorry...but they both scare me. I am completely torn.

Anonymous said...


So good to hear from you and that you are holding "strong"! I know you want to take advantage of your good days, but don't over do it, and make sure you incision stays put.

You are continually in my thoughts and prayers. I looking for a miracle..I'm expecting the impossible..I believe in The Invincible. Receive and believe it.. God will perform it..TODAY!!! Hallelujah!

Love you much...Pam

PS..don't care to talk