Don't take it personal

For some odd reason, this thing that has tried to attach itself to me....tends to come with its own emotions.

Those that know me, know that I'm pretty constant when it comes to doing what needs to be done and not trying to worry about everything little thing, etc....however, this "thing" makes me nervous and think more than I should so.......if I should seem aloof, distant....don't take it personal...it comes with the territory. It makes you feel as if others are staring at you....wondering what you are thinking, trying to see your expressions, and it feels overwhelming at times. I asked my grandma who is going through the same thing and she said the same....you can't help it. You feel like you are living someone else's life, everyone is looking at you and you've become the goldfish in the bowl. It ends up making us nervous around people so often times it seems as if we are avoiding people. As I keep saying, it comes with the territory so please don't take it personal.

People interaction is what I need most so I certainly don't mean to push anyone away.

My mom has kept me on a strict regimen of what meds I should take around the clock and my days have become quite tolerable. Today, my aunt is going to stop by and visit. Mom said we would wrap some of the Christmas presents I've already bought. The more I get done when I'm feeling well, the better I will feel. I may even start my Christmas cards. I know it is how many months away but we all know how quickly it comes around. It may be slower for me this year but nonetheless, Christmas is always here before you know it.

I'm going to try to work around the house a little today to see how my body handles it. Just bending over from my surgery has been excruiating at times....especially when my incision came back open so I have to be careful. Nonetheless, I've got to try to see what I can do so I won't go stir crazy later.

Today is going to be a more physical day......Thank you Lord for the energy.

P.S. What do you think about Palin as VP?